diff --git a/src/middleware/Controller.ts b/src/middleware/Controller.ts
index 33b0268..5aaac3d 100644
--- a/src/middleware/Controller.ts
+++ b/src/middleware/Controller.ts
@@ -134,13 +134,35 @@ class Controller extends EventEmitter
         }
 
         // const promises = [];
+        const retry: Shard[] = [];
         for (let i = 0; i < shardCount; i++)
         {
             const shard = this.createShard(shardCount);
-            await shard.spawn(90_000);
+            try
+            {
+                await shard.spawn(90_000);
+            }
+            catch (err)
+            {
+                this.logger.error(err as Error);
+                this.logger.info('Retrying shard', i);
+                retry.push(shard);
+            }
             // promises.push();
         }
 
+        for (const shard of retry)
+        {
+            try
+            {
+                await shard.spawn(120_000);
+            }
+            catch
+            {
+                this.logger.error(`Shard ${shard.id} failed to spawn in time`);
+            }
+        }
+
         // await Promise.all(promises);
 
         this.#logger.status(`Shards spawned, spawned ${this.#shards.size} shards. Took ${Date.now() - start} ms`);
diff --git a/src/middleware/shard/Shard.ts b/src/middleware/shard/Shard.ts
index 00aa467..a86d6cf 100644
--- a/src/middleware/shard/Shard.ts
+++ b/src/middleware/shard/Shard.ts
@@ -132,6 +132,7 @@ class Shard extends EventEmitter
         {
             const cleanup = () =>
             {
+                this.#process?.kill();
                 clearTimeout(spawnTimeoutTimer); // eslint-disable-line @typescript-eslint/no-use-before-define
                 this.off('ready', onReady); // eslint-disable-line @typescript-eslint/no-use-before-define
                 this.off('disconnect', onDisconnect); // eslint-disable-line @typescript-eslint/no-use-before-define